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I am not happy , not at all.

When was the last time my friends asked how i felt ?

i dont remeber .

Coz... i'm not happy when i'm with them .

not at all .

When you intrude into one person privacy thinking you know them enough to do that . So that's why i retaliated . and when you hurt my pride.

When you say things as if you knew me enough to judge who i am but do you know how much i took it in ? When you think of me as the worst guy around WITHOUT standing into my shoes .

When you fucking think your the king of the world while riding behind my back nodding to what you COMMANDED ME TO DO EVERYTIME YOU ASKFOR SOMETHING .
And hey , i want to know you . But i failed , because i lived with you and tell you the truth i am not a nice guy to live with if you keep demanding things fr0m me as if it's natural .

i had enough ...
i really have ...
I am crying .
My heart is crying .

do you know that i try my best to be a friend that you WANT me to be ?

but i'm tired i really am .

i had my share of pain while you think i have not.

you think that i am useless / pathetic when i am not .

you think that i'm clueless to the surroundings when i have known it , it's just how i want to react so that redundant stress is created .

i dislike the society not because of how it destroyed my confidence.

i am paranoid . thats much as i can say .

i am scared . For that's me .

i hide my feelings because i do not want anyone the hurt and in the result Life makes fun of me and Emotions let lose when i least want it to .

i am tired , thats why i wrote this post .

i don't care if you think of me as a asshole or a kid .

i don't want this to carry on ... i have did enough bad .

I cannot express my feeling well .

I am emo because something someone hurt my pride and i do not want to tell them to Fuck themselves .

I cries because i am sad.

I am gentle and open because i treat you as real friends.

I am in my laptop because i do not want to talk so much because i know it's gonna accidentally hurt someone .

I keep quiet because you said something that hurt me .

I am quiet because i refuse to irritate anyone .

I am lonely because of how surrounding treats me .

I am trying my best when no one is watching .

I hate it when all you say is a farce .

I love it when you encourage me .

I love all three of you because you are my pals .

I hate myself to say this to you because i love you so much to trouble you .

I am lost because i can't speak as freely as i could .

I am Glad because you let me into your refuge when my world was raining .


so..
Let the worst come .

hope*